It's been a while! I wanted to write this post to catch up with y'all because the past two weeks have been a whirlwind.. If you missed my last post where I talked about my life you can check it out HERE.Β So as some of you may have seen on Instagram Stories, I had a bit of a car accident a week and a half ago. Literally on the last day of my placement, after driving in crazy city rush hour traffic for over 2 years, this girl right here had an accident. Luckily, the air bags saved me and I only had some minor scuffs and bruises - nothing that some good ol' Tylenol couldn't handle, but.. the car.. not so much. So, then began another week long battle of who is going to win: our decision making skills (of choosing, negotiating and purchasing a new car) OR the rental car!Β
Anyway, long story short... its been a crazy week. And if you read my last post, you will know that I am currently in the midst of applying for residency/internship.. which is a job in and of itself. Once the accident happened, and the initial adrenaline wore off, I came home and crashed for like 6 hours. I think I napped for 3 hours once I got home and then I woke up, ate and went back to sleep. The next few days were also the same... And in that time I just realized that somethings gotta give. I am E.X.H.A.U.S.T.E.D... I am working like a monster, applying for internships, working part time at a private practice, mommin' at home, meal prepping, cooking yada yada.. and also trying to keep up with this blog and my instagram. But I can't do it all.. and right now is NOT the time to do it all, when there is something far greater at stake i.e my applications which are essentially going to be shaping my career. The same career I have spent the past 10 years working so so so hard on. I am in the home stretch, but that accident really lifted this curtain from my eyes. I have this need to stay busy.. I mean who doesn't in today's age? But for me, I can't sit still.. and its all well and good, but sadly the cost is SELF-CARE!Β
I think as working women or being a stay at home mom or whatever you do in your life, it is so easy to try to get it all done! We live in a society, where being busy is actually valued. If your weekends aren't booked in advanced, you are "wasting time" - the FOMO is SO legitimately real and debilitating.. And sadly, the whole of this year and before, I have been sucked into BAD. So.. when that initial post-adrenaline-stupor ended after that accident, I just did nothing that weekend and this weekend. And it felt so DARN GOOOD! And I didn't blog, I didn't check my phone for HALF an hour before going to bed.. I didn't check my emails after 5 pm. I just decided I needed some distance.. to be unbusy.. in a life of perpetual business.
Okay Areeba, get to the point is what you must be wondering.. so a week and a half later, I have to make some tough decisions. Because this season in my life, my hard work on my career is way up there in terms of priority. I have been running the marathon of graduate school, and finally, FINALLY, I can see the glimmer of that shiny ribbon at the finish line. But this last 100 yards, is going to take ALL of me. It is going to be gruelling like none other and I need to take care of ME, to get through it. I can be a mom and MORE.. but to be more, I have to put ME before others. So I can't do it all.. and that is one hard thing for me to accept let alone write out here for you to read. I love posting here, I love sharing my DIY's or fun stuff.. but I can't do it at the level as I wanted to. It's not the season in my life for that to be the main focus for me. Don't get me wrong - Β I still have some fun stuff coming up this week (blog hop series, some diy's I wanted to share) and so on.. but I will be kind of going on a hiatus-ish with the occasional post. And I mean, we can still hang out on Instagram because this girl, right here, love the gram! But blogging is a full time job on its own.. and I have enough jobs to go around currently.Β
So there you have it.. a long winded post about less posts in the future. But you gotta do what you gotta do, right?!
Hope you have a great Monday, my sweet friends!